07 March 2010

talk about a square box of nothing. which i seem to always be in. i can do what i want. and what i want would appear before my eyes. and the things i think of would come to life. and the birds fly from wall to wall and then dissappear into an ocean of jellyfish. and you turn around and the ground turns to grass and the walls are now a jungle and the night sky is a wonderous thing with all the stars shining brightly. i will fall asleep in this box of nothing. because that box of nothing. happens to be me. i lay asleep in the forest in a blanket and pillow. i will cry when i want to. and that may not be often. but you will know when i do. because my box will turn to a massive storm with thunder and lightning. and my box will fill up. fill up of tears which i will drown myself in. but thats okay because i will just sink to the bottom of the box and there will be a light coat of sand and there will be glittery starfish gold coloured, and then i will fall asleep there again. and i will lay my head on a clam with a beautiful jewel inside it. because its too scared to let it out. because with all that beauty, one would snatch it straight away. and it would be gone forever. it would be like someones heart. just imagine if we could open our chest to see our heart, how beautiful and precious it would be. that someone would take it straight away. and they would lock it away in a box. not that they really thought about the reason they took it, just because they want it and they'll keep it away. so they feel loved somehow. which theyre not actually. its just stealing. and that box. that box they left it in for so many years in the dark. that box was me. and how i grow to that heart, not knowing whose it is. but its there, and im here. and i think i like it. at least if it were actually mine, i'd take care of it. and not leave it in someone else to take care of. so i advise all never to be a vacant box of nothing, like myself. because all it causes is tears and voices, things you only hear of in your nightmares. so take care.