forgotten not.

you see when you start something like this, its almost impossible to stop. when you leave something its impossible to start, to take off on where youd been, but you forget. its like a persons gone and you dont know what to do. they were your everything. and there gone. its hard to describe, but im trying. you dont cry because its too sad. you let everyone know that your all okay, but your not. you say you miss them, but you dont because to miss means something is gone forever. they come back at times, theyre the best days of your life. they leave and you try to think about the next time you'll see them. its hard because you dont know why they were ever friends with you. and you know they have found better people to talk to. but here you are. for me imparticular its hard to get close to a friend like that again. because what if they leave. what happens now. do i have to keep finding people to share everything and then they leave and find someone better. i thought it would never happen after the first time. but it did. and i think it wont happen again. but it will. eventually. i feel like i should move away too. i feel like going someplace sunny with a beach. find a whole new group of people to like. and a whole new place to explore. because with out you. im nothing. and ive been nothing. for quite a while.