i want to write this, but it seems so much simplier in my head, so im sorry if you dont understand. i want to give it all up. go away. and start new. but i cant. and i hate that fact. i really hate school at the moment and i really love school at the moment. it hurts to go to school, to see them. it hurts muchly sometimes i feel like crying. and just giving up all hopes. but then i love it. just because i see him. but whenever i see him, i just live in this world thinking that he likes me. its silly. cos when i realize its just my thoughts i know its all not true. and im pretty sure no one would like me and i dont have any reasons for them too. so i understand why he doesnt. but i still hope my fairytale, will be my happy ending.
