I have started to feel physically ill of myself again. I feel like vomiting, all. the. time. It's horrible but I can't not. I'm so disgusting, and I wish when people say I'm not, I'd believe it and it'd help but it doesn't work like that it just makes me feel more disgusted about myself knowing that they, perfect as ever, think I'm pretty/skinny which I know so very clearly I'm not and I just feel like they're feeling sorry for me or something. I hate it. I hate this.
