Until We Bleed

today was a good day. the last of good days. you see tomorrow is school. which is basically the start of bad days. except school distracts me from some things. thats good. today i found out that one bottle of peach ice tea has two hundred and twenty calories in it, i hate that it is so unfair these things. today i bought two pairs of fake eyelashes. but it is shit because i know i will only want to use them for 'special occasions' but one will never come around and i will never end up using them until i force myself. school tomorrow is sport also. and i can barely walk. literally. and it hurts so much, but i make myself keep doing it. i don't feel like going to bed so i wake up at seven, i don't feel like getting ready for a place i don't want to go, i don't feel like saying hello again to everyone when i never said goodbye. i hate first days back. everyone is smiling and happy and exiting and talking and fussing. yet they say they hate school? everyones talking about shit that happened in holidays and things other people missed out on. i don't care about that stuff. i care about things. things that i like. and people that i like. why can't everything just be simplified. i tell you what i'm really sick of. i'm sick of when i usually have a shower i put the radio on to hear some stupid lady gaga song but instead i hear fucking florence and the machine. fuck. fuck it to hell. i mean yeah death cab for cutie had it's phase with new moon coming out. and i hear the temper trap. i rather listen to the blurs of lady gaga or akon than fucking them. why can't they just leave that type of music out of it. and stop trying to make it 'cool'. i like it how not many people know of those bands. i don't like it when the whole new mainstream music is 'indie' or whatever you call it. and when your listening to it everyones not like 'oh i know that song'. it just sucks. and pisses me off. i like people who naturally liked those bands, who actually didn't have to listen to the top forty to know what music they 'have' to listen to to be 'cool'. i like it when people actually choose they're own music. according to what they like not whats on the radio. i like that. anyway. i liked today. it was good.